better off dead.

life's not as fun as it seems to be.

even the sports thing i have always look forward to, wasnt fun.

what's the bloody problem wrong with me?

maybe im really tired.

maybe im just asking too much.

maybe im just starting to fade away.

maybe, maybe..

it's just me being unable to cope with life in the way it is now.

note: how much you want to hide from me, i still know it's you.

horrible people.

horrible teachers.

horrible students.

horrible friends.

horrible timing.

horrible life.

horrible songs.

horrible you.

horrible me.

horrible, everybody.

and that horrible feeling inside of me.

RARRs.

i just dont understand why it all turn out this way.

so many things.. went the wrong way out.

i feel bad inside.

the split personality is calming down.

maybe, it is tired of everything too.

i'll do what i've promised.

i promised to be happy.

i will be happy off dead.

i promised to not get into coma for the experience i always wanted.

i'll die straight away.

i promised to study hard and get at least 3As for this EOY examination,

if not, i'll jump off the building.

i know i cant, so be prepared to see me fall.

i promised to not die in this period of time.
yes, i know. i'll keep it.

i promised to save money up for your birthday present,

yes, that's what i've been doing.

but i've said, i dont plan to live over sec4 period.

and i wont. i will just go off in the mid.

you should know what i meant.

im sick of it.

stupid self sympathy.

but yes, it really does let me feel better writing all out.

i feel better.

better.

better off dead.

i need a hugg badly.